Pure Happy

I have this friend. Wait let me start somewhere else. When other people get things, and I don't I'm usually only partially happy for them. Mostly I get really angry and kind of jealous, but not quite. I don't know what the word is. Maybe resentful. Anyway, it's really tiring believe it or not. I hate it. A lot. But even though I recognize it as soon as it happens, I can never seem to stop it. So this friend. Most of you don't know him. Who he is is pretty irrelevant. But recently he just had some really great things happen to him, and is in a really great place in life. A great girlfriend (who I really like), he just graduated from school, which he did really well in an really enjoyed. And just landed a sweet job, that he's super excited about and pay's pretty dang decently! Also, he just had his 21st birthday. So, after we went out for drinks with him and some friends, and I found all this out and realized what a great position he was in I just felt happy for him! No resentfulness, no anger, no jealousy or hatred. It was such a wonderful feeling. I'm even getting it right now a little bit! I don't know why I felt so happy for him, but it was a really nice feeling. I was trying to explain it to Thomas, and I asked him if thats how he felt when good things happened to other people, he said; yup, pretty much. Then I was jealous! But, I'll just take it one step at a time and be happy for myself being happy for once! Yay.